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The lessions of life
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Do not mourn for the past, worry about the future or anticipate troubles, but live in the present moment wisely and earnestly
To thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.
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| What do you do when breathers dont work when you want to be you again... fixing the pieces that will never be whole again Cant cry with dried up tears, Im constantly battling my fears, EVERYDAY but life is great, wish I can feel and believe its real but Im not checked in cause my nightmares are real Solitude is no fortitude I cant stand on my own but I tough it out every day, every night Im alone. Its HARD being righteous and keeping up with the path I take I just want to scream and drown in my own hate I never say NEVER and hate to HATE but the anxiety is too real and too much to take..
Im afraid to step out of my comfort zone but its a risk I should take.... to be clear-headed and mending the heartbreak I can say all the things you want to hear but Im only fooling my own ears... I could die a thousand deaths and start all over again... I do everything and anything just to be me again -And how many times do I say this WHy cant I get over this shit!! get over my self pity and countless regrets I regret to regret and never forget I try to be one thing and miss the next step Im selfish and rude ...you just dont know... I cant just be one person so I guess Ill never grow Im torn in all directions and broken more than ever and every day I come up with a better clever answer Excuse me for all my excuses, forgive me if I become abusive, I just dont know where to go anymore.... yet with everything I know, tomorrow is a new day time to start over... and if I'm still around, you'll be hearing more...
WHen will it ever be over .... ? | | |
| Remember I said I'd do whatever it takes to weather my grief and pitless heart I can run but I spiral into a deeper grave the deeper core of my humanity that seeks redemption and the first signs of ecstasy just to spiral into a tangled web of insanity A part of me will hold the love and the pain you showed me and as real as can be, it eats away my integrity. "Keep your best foot forward" but the distance is crazy and im spinning til I lose the direction God had given me I miss the old me cause my sensitivity is killing me. Why would you take me here, you said you loved me, and you really cared and still, I'll always be here, carrying my heavy heart. I took a chance but couldnt stay focused your hovering clouded the memory of who I wanted to be you thought I wouldn't notice And I always feel like second best I can win the battle, give it my all, and still fail the test life is such a mess yet life and love is still precious to me so I keep stepping up and moving forward. Get up, get dressed, and fight the good fight with my best foot ahead of me | | |
| "We live in illusion and the appearance of things. There is a reality. We are that reality. When you understand this, you see that you are nothing, and being nothing, you are everything. That is all."

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| Life was at a time ... rainbows and butterflies til adam and eve compromised and realized they were naked.
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| unlike most guys He wont let me down We let ourselves down and in self pity we are pinned to the ground He works in mysterious ways but always gives me tests i seem to always fail.. if he intended my heart to break then i dont know how much i can endure He seems to make it impossible for me to quit although its though my soul has surrendered but there is hope He gives me every time im down at my lowest i am forced to stand up take a look around and go about the whole process over but now its like i have a chance to make it better inspiration to see things a little clearer the past makes us stronger a bit shakened but the more wiser every day is a new adventure. dont let anyone bring you down, if you fall thats all you
please be careful with my heart its healing and needy as ever theres a fear that i cant shake away but i guess He hasnt given up on me because i feel the strength he knows is best for me its like im wounded from battle but braver than ever...
please God help me help myself Help me show him who i can be
and thank you for loving me
♥ yours truely
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