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The lessions of life
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Do not mourn for the past, worry about the future or anticipate troubles, but live in the present moment wisely and earnestly
To thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.
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| What do you do when breathers dont work
when you want to be you again...
fixing the pieces that will never be whole again
Cant cry with dried up tears,
Im constantly battling my fears,
EVERYDAY
but life is great,
wish I can feel and believe its real
but Im not checked in cause my nightmares are real
Solitude is no fortitude
I cant stand on my own
but I tough it out every day, every night Im alone.
Its HARD being righteous and keeping up with the path I take
I just want to scream and drown in my own hate
I never say NEVER and hate to HATE
but the anxiety is too real and too much to take..
Im afraid to step out of my comfort zone but its a risk I should take.... to be clear-headed and mending the heartbreak
I can say all the things you want to hear
but Im only fooling my own ears...
I could die a thousand deaths and start all over again...
I do everything and anything just to be me again -And how many times do I say this
WHy cant I get over this shit!!
get over my self pity and countless regrets
I regret to regret and never forget
I try to be one thing and miss the next step
Im selfish and rude ...you just dont know...
I cant just be one person so I guess Ill never grow
Im torn in all directions and broken more than ever
and every day I come up with a better clever answer
Excuse me for all my excuses, forgive me if I become abusive,
I just dont know where to go anymore....
yet with everything I know, tomorrow is a new day
time to start over...
and if I'm still around, you'll be hearing more...
WHen will it ever be over .... ? | | |
| Remember I said I'd do whatever it takes
to weather my grief and pitless heart
I can run but I spiral into a deeper grave
the deeper core of my humanity
that seeks redemption and the first signs of ecstasy
just to spiral into a tangled web of insanity
A part of me will hold the love and the pain you showed me
and as real as can be, it eats away my integrity.
"Keep your best foot forward" but the distance is crazy
and im spinning til I lose the direction God had given me
I miss the old me cause my sensitivity is killing me.
Why would you take me here, you said you loved me, and you really cared
and still, I'll always be here, carrying my heavy heart.
I took a chance but couldnt stay focused
your hovering clouded the memory of who I wanted to be
you thought I wouldn't notice
And I always feel like second best
I can win the battle, give it my all, and still fail the test
life is such a mess
yet life and love is still precious to me
so I keep stepping up and moving forward. Get up, get dressed,
and fight the good fight with my best foot ahead of me | | |
| "We live in illusion and the appearance of things. There is a reality. We are that reality. When you understand this, you see that you are nothing, and being nothing, you are everything. That is all."
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| Life was at a time
... rainbows and butterflies
til adam and eve compromised
and realized they were naked.
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| unlike most guys He wont let me down
We let ourselves down and in self pity we are pinned to the ground
He works in mysterious ways but always gives me tests i seem to always fail..
if he intended my heart to break then i dont know how much i can endure
He seems to make it impossible for me to quit although its though my soul has surrendered
but there is hope He gives me every time im down at my lowest
i am forced to stand up take a look around and go about the whole process over
but now its like i have a chance to make it better
inspiration to see things a little clearer
the past makes us stronger a bit shakened but the more wiser
every day is a new adventure. dont let anyone bring you down, if you fall thats all you
please be careful with my heart
its healing and needy as ever
theres a fear that i cant shake away
but i guess He hasnt given up on me
because i feel the strength he knows is best for me
its like im wounded from battle but braver than ever...
please God help me help myself
Help me show him who i can be
and thank you for loving me
♥ yours truely
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